Happy Sunday guys! 😊

I've had a crazy fulfilling weekend so far and I'm really very very pleased. Most of the time when I have alot of stuff and commitments I feel very drained cos I just want a break, but this weekend surprisingly, I feel really really good.

Btw, I've realised the reason for my stinky feet are my slippers??! Like this particular pair that make my feet stink to high heavens when I wear them. So I've thrown them out and stolen Daniel's instead. I love slippers. 😍

We had our first….modelled shoot(?) yesterday and I personally and super duper happy with all the photos we took. 😊

It took me so long to find someone I wanted to represent us and for someone to want to do it for us. I was a little more picky and didn't want to choose a pro because it wasn't exactly how I wanted the photos to turn out.

I'm not sure if it's my personal preference, but I prefer the amateur looking shots and I like it when the subject is…herself.

I also don't know what I'm saying la! HAHA. I think sometimes it's really hard to put your gut feel into words and it's something I've been working on getting better at.

To explain why I think certain things should be done a certain way. 😊

Anyway! Just happy with how the shoot turned out!

My ootd for yesterday, until I asked Daniel

"Does this shirt make me look like a fashionista or a hobo"

And he decided….

I needed to change my shirt πŸ™ˆ

Went home after the shoot to celebrate @chowchowsheep's birthday with a seafood feast for dinner!

We had a total of 6 crabs, 4 small ones and 2 HUGE ones. 1kg each. 😨

HAHA my brother wanted me to experiment with the smaller crabs so I cooked black pepper crabs and it was……AMAZING.

Sorry self praise but seriously good. Next time imma cook it with clams then I'll share recipe ok πŸ˜‚

Uh, my baby #taobao loots also came awhile back so we dressed the nephew up as a baby watermelon πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚

He's seriously too freaking cute!! πŸ™ˆ

Anyway, I saw this on a FB page I've been following for awhile now, so we went to do some shopping at the value dollar store this afternoon in prep for the donation.

I've always wanted to help the migrant workers, cos I've had nothing but pleasant experiences interacting with them and I always wanted to help them, so I guess it's a good time to start!

I've read of aunties filling mineral bottles and freezing them for the construction workers and thought it was a good idea!

Our buys!

Before anyone says I'm cheapo and only donate cheap stuff, I just wanna say that…I always buy my neccesities from the value dollar store cos it is so much cheaper?

I buy my bodysoap, toothpaste, air freshener, snacks, stationery and everything from there πŸ˜‚ so uh…I don't think it's anything bad.

Plus, by doing my homework and finding stuff that are cheaper, I get to help more people with the same amount of money.

If you want to donate as well, remember to check out their Facebook page!

Btw, I made these earrings for $2 from the tassles and ear hooks found in the daiso DIY section πŸ˜‚

I saw someone post about doing this (with way huger tassles) in the Daiso Fanatics FB group. So I wanted to try it out.

If you're wondering why I'm in the Daiso Fanatics group, it's cos my old job had a KPI which was to join all the shoppaholic groups on FB to gain more customer info.

But I got hooked HAHA.

Btw, the aunties in the group are CRAY about daiso.

One of them tailed a Daiso truck all the way to the West gate (? I think) outlet before because it meant RESTOCKS and she wanted to get the new stuff.

I call that dedication.

I really find it quite pretty, and the tassles are soft???

But I don't really wear earrings except the studs I don't ever change. So wasted.

Eh if anyone wants them, let me know and I'll mail them out with your next order (πŸ˜‚ trying to drive sales) HAHA.

First come first serve tho!! Aiya, don't order also can la! I will mail them out either way! πŸ˜‚

Before the night ends, I just wanted to share a little about the thoughts I have about body positivity and confidence.

Haha. Before I actually settled on a model, alot of the girls *ahem* @tshihhwee @mytypeofrunaway @chenshiqi kept asking me to do it myself.

To which, I replied. I cannot.

Because I really cannot.

I think despite telling everyone that their body is beautiful and that it's ok to be different, I'm still not ok with my own body yet?

And I think it shows.

Our model doesn't have your typical super toned body, but I really think she's very very beautiful and I love seeing her photos.

She's shy and awkward sometimes, but you can see her confidence shining through.

She's never done this before, but readily said yes when I asked and completed the shoot with so much finesse.

I don't think I could have done the same.

And I think it shows.

I have a very very bad posture, and I tend to sit with my back hunched and my shoulders sunken in because of the fact that I feel that I'm too big.

And I feel like I need to hide myself.

I slouch when I walk because I feel too tall and I want to compress myself to look smaller.

When I take photos, my body stiffens up and I contort into the most awkward position because I'm trying to make myself smaller.

When someone asks me to do a "walk" in front of the crowd, I get so nervous, I end up doing that walk where your hands and feet are lifted at the same time.

I've been watching my posture for awhile now and I've realised that it gets worse when I'm super self conscious.

In fact it's so bad that if I have to meet external parties of business or if it's a new event I have to attend, I am so physically exhausted by the end of it.

Physically exhausted because my muscles are tensed up 99% of the time from being awkward and self conscious and trying to hold myself together in the best way possible.

And I think it's really something I want to work on and develop. To become comfortable and confident enough to be who I am.

I think having the photoshoot really reinforced this for me. I keep telling people they are so beautiful because I really feel so.

But I cannot say the same thing for myself.

There was another moment when we were doing on the spot reviews of the photos we took and @mytypeofrunaway and I were gushing about how gorgeous our model (I'm gonna call J from now on) looked and she immediately pointed out like multiple of her own flaws.

Flaws I didn't even see and couldn't even find if i searched really hard.

We are often the most critical about ourselves and I think we give ourselves too hard of a time.

Most often, the world doesn't even scrutinize us with the kind of detail we do to ourselves.

So we should probably start treating ourselves better. To see the beauty and past the flaws.

To be able to see the flaws as strengths and stand a little taller.

I'm not there yet, but I am making it my goal to work towards it.

And I think this community really helps. To have people tell you you're beautiful. To hear that you are wonderful, it helps in setting you in the right direction of finding your own kind of remarkable too.

So thank you for being so nice and for #girlshelpinggirls in becoming stronger everyday.

Btw, I'm really enjoying my #100daysofbralettes challenge so far. I never thought I would, but I really am. So thank you. 😊

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